Grr

Dear creepy lady at the gym,

Yes, I am the only one here. Yes, I am a chubby white chick. No, I am not obese and do not need to be walked through the proper way to run by someone who has 60 lbs on me and is a foot shorter, but sees me as huge because I am not Japanese.

Also, the iPod is a good indicator I don’t want to talk to anyone.

Finally, you staring at me while I do sit ups and push ups and making comments to no one but yourself about my yum is not helpful. Just man the desk and leave me be.

Sincerely,

Raygan

Ps… Sorry this is rather negative but she was really offputting and I might go home and cry now. I am including a photo of myself pre workout at 161 lbs.

10k

Weighed in yesterday at 73kg. Eep. That is 161 lbs. So… Since my goal is 145lbs/65kg, I gots some work to do! Not as MUCH work as I thought actually… that stupid change between kilos and pounds gets me every time! My goal is to lose that weight by January 1st, 2012. That means, I have to lose .4 of a lb every week. There is no reason i cannot get off my ass and do that.

So, how do I do this?

Sitting on my butt is actually not getting me there. Huh! Who knew! I haven’t gained AS much as I thought I had this past year (I thought I was closer to 175 lbs, to be honest) but I am still feeling… hefty. I know I have bad body image, and part of that is from living in a country of wee people, but I recently saw a picture that made me realize I am pretty average sized compared, at least, to the other western women I know, so I should seriously stop beating myself up so much. Yes, I need to lose 16lbs. I know. But that is not the 30 that I thought, nor the 50 I lost when I left Japan the first time!

Anyway, I have downloaded an app called sparkpeople which tracks your calories and exercise – much like the Weight Watchers program I did back in 2003, which helped me lose that 50lbs.

A new friend, showed me this video, which is quite inspiring. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8SbXgQqbOoU And it seems to me everyone I know is doing an ironman. Ok. so, 2 people. But still. That is still amazing. Where I am not going to be ironman material any time soon, there is no reason I can not be inspired and get off my butt and do a 10km run. So, October 10th, I am signing up for my first ever 10k. That means I have to actually train – as the farthest I have ever run before (well, since high school) is 7km.

Wish me luck, Bitches/Babes/Buddies!